Carrie

Hello,   My name is Carrie, and I would like to share my testimony. 

First let me start off by telling you that I am only 13 1/2, I know what you are probably thinking "what kind of testimony can someone so young have?"  Well, in this day in age a lot can happen to preteens and teens, so just hang in there for a minute while I tell you my testimony. You won't regret it.    

I was saved when I was seven years old, and lived in a small town sheltered from most things, but then when I was nine years old, my mother committed suicide, after being married to a man who abused her verbally and physically, leaving me and my two older brothers in the care of our dad and step-Mom.  My brothers and I had to move from everything we knew to a different state, away from all of our friends and  family, to live with my dad, step-Mom and three older stepbrothers plus my real brothers.    

Well, let me just say things were OK for about a year or so for me anyway, but I really didn't fit in with my surroundings. All of my brothers started getting in to drugs, smoking, drinking, sex, stealing and lots of other things. You know me, a little 11 year old girl who wanted more than anything to fit in with my brothers and to show them that I wasn't an all around "goody, goody", so I started doing what they did -  hanging out with there friends, smoking, drinking, partying, doing drugs, stealing, breaking the law, and even some witch craft, which is really something you don't want to mess around with. I even almost had sex with one of their friends, but thank God I didn't, because somewhere deep inside I was knew it was wrong and there were consequences for some things.

After all this stuff started happening I went into a deep depression, but I don't think anyone really realized it because I started to stay away from my brothers. At one point, I seriously thought about killing myself, I thought, hey my Mom did it so why can't I, no one cares about me, no one tells me "I love you," I'm here traveling through life alone, but I also was so lost, I didn't know what to do. I was a scared little child, forgetting that I am never alone God is always there.     

Then I turned 12 and it was the summer again.  We moved and I didn't have any friends, so I wanted to get out of my house, because I was pretty much under house arrest because my brothers got sick of me, and Church Camp was coming up so I decided I would go, just so I could get away from all my family for a week. So I went,  not knowing that God would work in my life again.  On the second to the last day I recommitted my life to the Lord, and I have never been the same since, but the story isn't over yet. 

A lot has happened since a year and a half ago. My dad divorced my step-Mom, getting rid of my stepbrothers who were really bad influences on me. I get to go to a Christian School, and be in a Christian band. God has given me the strength to handle almost anything now. I want to serve God forever, and when I grow up I want to be a missionary so I can tell all people about Jesus and how He has changed my life.      

Parents please remember to show your children how much you love them and how much you care about them. They need you more than anything.  Maybe if my dad would have a lot more, I wouldn't have went the way I did, but I know God allowed all the horrible things to happen to me for a reason, maybe that reason is to show people God can take even teenagers and use them for his glory. 

Thank you so much for reading my testimony. God bless you all.

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